{"id":20348,"date":"2013-10-28T00:53:19","date_gmt":"2013-10-28T04:53:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/?p=20348"},"modified":"2013-10-28T10:38:36","modified_gmt":"2013-10-28T14:38:36","slug":"lou-reed-as-his-music-sounded-to-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/lou-reed-as-his-music-sounded-to-me\/","title":{"rendered":"Lou Reed&#8230;As His Music Sounded to Me!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/LouReed.gif\"><img loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-20359\" alt=\"LouReed\" src=\"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/LouReed.gif\" width=\"317\" height=\"307\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I first became aware of Lou Reed when I was 13 or so, the year I finally dipped into FM rock radio after a childhood of scratchy 45s; my first 2 dozen LPs by the likes of The Beatles, The Band, Joe Cocker, and Traffic; AM radio; and the latest TSOP album-length cuts hot off Philadelphia&#8217;s FM soul station, <a title=\"WDAS\" href=\"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/bad-luck-streak-comes-to-an-end-teddy-pe\/\" target=\"_blank\">WDAS<\/a>. Rock radio on the FM dial in 1976 wasn&#8217;t all the cool, older kids at my school made it out to be. I got to hear cuts from <em>Who&#8217;s Next<\/em> for the first time and more Mick Taylor-era Stones than I&#8217;d ever heard before on AM radio\u2014and there <em>Beatles A to Z<\/em> weekends galore\u2014but I had to wait through a bunch of stoopid blooz-rock that typically bored me once songs ran past the 3-minute mark: Led Zeppelin, Ted Nugent, Lynyrd Skynyrd, The Allman Brothers&#8230;not to mention the often perplexing genre known as progressive rock. Jethro Tull slotted in between all these uncomfortable sounds. Worse yet, FM rock in Philadelphia circa 1976 featured way more Jackson Browne and Eagles than I could stomach. Often I figured, <em>The hell with trying to impress the cool kids!<\/em> and flipped back to the comforting AM sounds of The Spinners and Elton John.<\/p>\n<p>One long guitar-driven song that occasionally hit the airwaves on WMMR and WIOQ at that time was the <em>Rock &#8216;n Roll Animal<\/em> version of &#8220;Sweet Jane.&#8221; I already knew and loved &#8220;Walk on the Wild Side,&#8221; which somehow got played on AM radio when I was a preteen, but Lou Reed was just a name back then. The live version of &#8220;Sweet Jane,&#8221; with its swirling, fuzzed-out guitar intro followed by Reed&#8217;s strange, talk-sung, hectoring vocals and fatalistic lyrics always made me reach for the dial, the VOLUME dial. I cranked it up and marveled at the crunch Reed and his band produced. While the cool kids were slobbering over the quintuple-guitar solos of bands playing California Jam, I wanted to know more about the racket that this Lou Reed character was making. &#8220;Sweet Jane&#8221; (the live version), long intro solo and all, was the kind of song worth sticking out a friggin&#8217; Foreigner song in hopes of hearing. The hairs stood up on my neck every time Reed sang, &#8220;Some people like to go out dancing\/There&#8217;s other people like us, we gotta work.&#8221; This was the language I heard from my hard-working Mom after another long day&#8217;s work. This was way more true to the language in my home than songs about rockin&#8217; and rollin&#8217; all night, as was that &#8220;life is just to die&#8221; line that caps off &#8220;Sweet Jane.&#8221; Many a Saturday and Sunday morning in my house growing up was centered around such certain thoughts, as my Mom struggled to get out of bed and face another lonely day.<\/p>\n<div id=\"attachment_20350\" style=\"width: 360px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou.jpg\"><img aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-20350\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"size-full wp-image-20350\" alt=\"Not really the &quot;best of,&quot; but a boy's got to start somewhere.\" src=\"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou.jpg\" width=\"350\" height=\"350\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou.jpg 350w, https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou-96x96.jpg 96w, https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou-24x24.jpg 24w, https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou-36x36.jpg 36w, https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou-48x48.jpg 48w, https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/10\/bestoflou-64x64.jpg 64w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 350px) 100vw, 350px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-20350\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Not really the &#8220;best of,&#8221; but a boy&#8217;s got to start somewhere.<\/p><\/div>\n<p>After a few months of waiting for &#8220;Sweet Jane&#8221; to play, I finally took matters into my own hands, buying the <em>Rock &#8216;n Roll Animal<\/em> album as well as a cheapo &#8220;best of&#8221; album. The &#8220;best of&#8221; album included &#8220;Walk on the Wild Side,&#8221; of course, as well as a bunch of songs that were really strange to my ears. <a title=\"Satellite of Love\" href=\"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/tremendous-songs-that-somehow-lack-a-definitive-version\/\" target=\"_blank\">&#8220;Satellite of Love&#8221;<\/a> sounded familiar, like a David Bowie or Mott the Hoople song I would have already known, but some of the awkward songs stuck out, stuff like &#8220;How Do You Think It Feels,&#8221; which dealt with really personal, depressing stuff in a stilted musical arrangement. Like some of those lines from &#8220;Sweet Jane,&#8221; the mood of the song rang surprisingly true to the mood that sometimes pervaded my house. &#8220;Wild Child&#8221; was an easy release, like a cheap follow-up to &#8220;Walk on the Wild Side.&#8221; Some of the other songs were unlistenable for me then and now. From the beginning I would come to terms that Lou Reed had an amazing propensity to turn out <a title=\"Turdhunter!\" href=\"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/turdhunter\/\" target=\"_blank\">absolute crap<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p><!--more--><\/p>\n<iframe class='youtube-player youtuber' type='text\/html' width='425' height='355' src='http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/_uDopKnLmxc?rel=0&amp;fs=1&amp;ap=%252526fmt%253D18' webkitAllowFullScreen mozallowfullscreen allowFullScreen frameborder='0'><\/iframe>\n<p><em>Rock &#8216;n Roll Animal<\/em> was a nonstop assault of crunching guitars and hectoring vocals. I didn&#8217;t know what to make of it as a whole.\u00a0Because of the subject matter of a really long song called &#8220;Heroin&#8221; I could only crank up the album and really get down with it when no one else was home. Although my Mom could wallow in the darkness with the best of them, she did not find the soundtrack of loud, depressing rock &#8216;n roll to be a salve. &#8220;How can you listen to that stuff,&#8221; she would say if she came down to the basement while I was lost in such an album, &#8220;It makes me want to kill myself!&#8221; One other song that would stand out for me on <em>Rock &#8216;n Roll Animal<\/em>, when I was a young teenager, was &#8220;Rock &#8216;n Roll.&#8221; The live version is by no means the definitive studio version (ORIGINAL VINYL VERSION, without the added measures of room mic&#8217;ed rhythm guitar that would appear on the VU box set!) I would discover freshman year in college, but my life was in the process of being saved by rock &#8216;n roll. I could identify.<\/p>\n<p>Within a year or two of discovering Lou Reed, I got deep into rock &#8216;n roll, focusing on the hippie artists from my childhood I rediscovered through <em>The Last Waltz<\/em>, The Who (thanks to <em>The Kids Are Alright<\/em> documentary), and then punk rock. My 2 Lou Reed albums were picked over now and then for their handful of winning songs, but I didn&#8217;t enter college having earned the right to identify myself as a &#8220;big Lou Reed fan.&#8221; Sometime during freshman year I bought a double-album collection called <em>Rock and Roll Diary: 1967\u20131980<\/em>. This was the moment I became a big Lou Reed fan. By this point, 5 years past my young and innocent, straight-laced, idealistic, feather-haired freshman year in high school, I was a solid couple of months into a rapid transformation into a stoned, psychedelic punk rocker, albeit a psychedelic punk rocker incapable of reaching an even halfway formed sense of style. My second night on campus I got drunk (for the second time ever\u2014first since 8th grade), I got high (first), and I met my first partner in crime, Karl, a similarly large, transforming former would-be jock who was too sensitive at heart to resist succumbing to the teachings of John Lennon et al and leaving the jocks in the dust.<\/p>\n<p>I was high, man, the first time I dropped the needle on that Lou Reed collection. My dorm room was a triple. I was stuck with 2 super-straight guys from the midwest who months into freshman year had not been tempted in the least by the wild world of campus life. One was a quiet, friendly Christian guy who found plenty of activities and groups to keep him out of our room. The other was a quiet, judgmental guy who was as set as I was on establishing dominance of our oversized room. Maybe this guy wasn&#8217;t so judgmental with everyone as he was with me and my group of weirdo friends. Maybe we were open for judgment. He&#8217;d come back to the room, for instance, to find Karl and I getting high and blasting the soundtrack of <em>Apocalypse Now<\/em> (featuring dialog from key scenes) out the window to the unsuspecting ears of kids headed to their next class. All my roommate wanted to do was study and listen to his new J. Geils Band album, <em>Freeze Frame<\/em>. He played that album constantly. It tormented me the way Karl and I could only hope to have been tormenting other people with our guerrilla tactics.<\/p>\n<p>I was high when I first dropped the needle on <em>Rock and Roll Diary<\/em> and heard The Velvet Underground bashing out &#8220;Waiting for the Man.&#8221; I never got high to get mellow. I never intended to get high to chill and listen to the Dead with headphones. I was getting high to get higher, to get a charge, and &#8220;Waiting for the Man&#8221; was the kind of music worth waking up and getting high for. I started listening to that album every day, when I was alone. Cranked up.<\/p>\n<p>After the lead-off track the album sequenced &#8220;White Light\/White Heat,&#8221; a mess of anxiety and ecstasy. It made the rawness of any punk album I&#8217;d been blasting prior to then, like the first Clash album, sound like Terry Jacks. The lead guitar, mixed way too high, in &#8220;I Heard Her Call My Name,&#8221; was the <em>cri de coeur<\/em> I&#8217;d been feeling throughout my rage-filled life, from the kindergarten days of throwing desks at kids through sudden episodes of throwing haymakers at the slightest perceived insult through a constant undercurrent of shame through simply being up to here with the adults in my family too often being so shitty to each other during hard times. As I had my life-affirming, anger-can-be-power moment with that song, the Velvets brought things into a sad, accepting perspective with &#8220;Pale Blue Eyes.&#8221; And these songs all sounded simple enough for me, a still-clumsy guitarist, to figure out and play along to.<\/p>\n<p>Side 2 turned me onto the original studio versions of &#8220;Rock &#8216;n Roll&#8221; and &#8220;Sweet Jane.&#8221; Oh my god, these recordings were mind-blowing. How did I live 18 years in a major US city and never hear these records? Why weren&#8217;t these songs the fucking &#8220;Stairway to Heaven&#8221; and &#8220;Freebird&#8221; of my generation? Unbelievable. Then there was the studio version of &#8220;Heroin,&#8221; which I&#8217;d crank up in the occasional privacy of my dorm room and let carry me through previously unarticulated feelings that not even The Who could explain.<\/p>\n<p>Then the collection got into tracks from <em>Berlin<\/em>, which I would buy in the coming months along with every other VU and Lou Reed album I could find in Chicago record stores. <em>Berlin<\/em> came in really handy sophomore year, when my first girlfriend, in a romance cultured long distance over the summer between freshman and sophomore years, suddenly broke up with me and dredged up the worst feelings I thought I was growing past, feelings of inexplicable abandonment after my parents got divorced and my Dad just as definitively divorced himself from being a father to me and my brother. &#8220;I&#8217;m gonna stop wasting my time,&#8221; went the previously unarticulated chorus from &#8220;Sad Song&#8221; that I would listen to through life-affirming tears, &#8220;Somebody else would have broken both of her arms.&#8221; Who you gonna call when you need a lyric like that to work through some really horrible thoughts? No one else but Lou Reed.<\/p>\n<p>The legacy of Lou Reed starts and will surely end with constant references to his ground-breaking perspectives on the seedy side of big city life: the inglorious side of sex, drugs, and rock &#8216;n roll. Reed&#8217;s legacy is well earned, but personally, I was always a &#8220;nice&#8221; kid deep down. I wanted no business with needles, transexuals, that Andy Warhol scene&#8230;the stuff codified by many rock critics as being alluring meant nothing to me. I liked getting high, man, because I liked getting high and doing my thing. I had no interest in winning the approval of Andy Fucking Warhol or Edie Sedgwick or whatever Factory types a future Reed biopic will focus on. Lou came off like a prick in just about any interview I ever read. I never wanted to hang with Lou or be like Lou, as I did with many of my other rock heroes, but I with thrilled to have his bad attitude yet tender rock &#8216;n roll heart there for me when I needed it. I felt like understood where he was coming from, through all the bullshit, and I can&#8217;t tell you how many times I was thrilled to feel that he validated antisocial stuff that I was feeling. I sense some Bowie fans feel this way about their hero. Lou Reed was my misfit, alien saint.<\/p>\n<p>My scholastic career crashed for some time following a really painful, wasted sophomore year. I committed to another path, what would be a beautiful &#8220;it&#8217;s the journey, not the destination&#8221; path of trying to be a professional musician. Deep down I still felt like shit on many levels, but I was getting high and making music with my friends with a purpose.The Velvet Underground albums were a template for almost any underground musician. We all got into the VU in the early &#8217;80s, &#8220;we&#8221; being the new cool kids, the kids who were too cool to have wasted time getting into the myth of the Lizard King, Mr. Mojo Risin&#8217;, after reading 1980&#8217;s Jim Morrison biography, <em>No One Here Gets Out Alive<\/em>. The underground musician friends we were making had all rallied around those VU albums. Privately, I felt a little sad, as I did earlier today, reading all the tributes to Lou, that Lou and the Velvets were no longer just &#8220;my&#8221; thing, to be enjoyed in the privacy of my own room and the depths of my own mood dives. But it was cool to be a part of something. I&#8217;m not sure that punk rock ever really happened for me in the US as I fantasized it would happen for me the way it may have happened for outcasts in New York City in the mid-&#8217;70s or the English punks in 1977. I never celebrated the rise of American hardcore punk. The punk rock boat I wanted to board had long left the dock, but the rediscovery of bands like The Velvet Underground and The Stooges and Captain Beefheart and Syd Barrett-era Pink Floyd by music fans of my generation may have been our little taste of a cultural cruise.<\/p>\n<p>In 1982, Reed released <em>The Blue Mask<\/em>, a stripped-down, twin-guitar, VU-style celebration of&#8230;The Straight Life! Reed sang of getting sober and deciding that he loved women, after all. A very strange turn, but he was the same brutal, hectoring, confrontational, and even sometimes corny guy. His new guitar partner, Robert Quine, was out of this world. My friends and I listened to that album and watched the <em>A Night With Lou Reed<\/em> video religiously. We were getting really high while listening to and watching this stuff. Reed could be both liberating and laughable. There was a particular guitar face Reed made during the live performance of &#8220;Kill Your Sons,&#8221; I believe, that we spent what seemed like 2 hours trying to freeze just so, for in-depth analysis and hilarity. It was hard, mind you, to find just that frame and get it to show somewhat clearly on a VHS in 1983. Then we&#8217;d resume watching the concert and passionately air-strum along to the rhythm guitar in &#8220;Rock &#8216;n Roll&#8221; with the fellow dork in the audience at the Bottom Line.<\/p>\n<p>I got wasted to the accompaniment of <em>The Blue Mask<\/em> probably 100 times over the next couple of years. All the while the message of getting straight slowly sunk in. I have no idea if Reed stayed sober through the years, but I&#8217;ve been sticking to it a day at a time for a long time. It was the right move for me. The feelings Reed tapped into, the feelings I tapped into when first getting turned onto Reed&#8217;s music, haven&#8217;t really changed. I cranked up &#8220;I Heard Her Call My Name&#8221; today and still felt that life-affirming sense of lashing out at the entire world for all it did to me. Big fucking baby style. No time for reflection and clear-headedness. I listened to the third album and got chills, as I always do, during the solo in &#8220;I&#8217;m Set Free.&#8221; I&#8217;ll make time this week to listen to <em>Berlin<\/em> and, while Lou sings the chorus to &#8220;Sad Song,&#8221; think about the pain a couple of people I loved caused me. I&#8217;ll listen to &#8220;Men of Good Fortune&#8221; and relive the shameful class hang ups I suspect I will never shake. I&#8217;ll listen to the <em>Take No Prisoners<\/em> version of &#8220;Coney Island Baby&#8221; and think about how deeply I still relate to Lou&#8217;s preamble about wanting to play for the coach. &#8220;Street Hassle&#8221; will load on my iPod and I&#8217;ll think about how perfectly that song tied up the ending of <em>The Squid and the Whale<\/em>, a film that speaks deeply to many of my teenage experiences.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been working at writing a book about my own experiences being saved by rock &#8216;n roll. We&#8217;ll see what comes of it. If it&#8217;s only for my own edification that&#8217;s cool. One of Lou&#8217;s lyrics is my working title. Although I&#8217;m a &#8220;big Lou Reed fan,&#8221; I have my limits. I disliked most of his work after that third album with Quine. I never saw him live, having missed out on opportunities to see him with Quine. I don&#8217;t even like that <em>New York<\/em> album that everyone got excited about. It sounded phony and forced to me. No matter, the guy had long earned his spot in the real rock &#8216;n roll hall of fame, the one that we know artists qualify for as certainly as Supreme Court justices know pornography when they see it. I&#8217;m not going to claim to be among the top 1,000,000 Lou Reed fans, but the guy turned out a body of work that spoke to feelings few approached before or since.<\/p>\n<p><a title=\"Lou Reed...as his music was meant to sound!\" href=\"http:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/?s=%22lou+reed...%22&amp;searchsubmit=\" target=\"_blank\"><em>Previously<\/em>&#8230;<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I first became aware of Lou Reed when I was 13 or so, the year I finally dipped into FM rock radio after a childhood of scratchy 45s; my first 2 dozen LPs by the likes of The Beatles, The Band, Joe Cocker, and Traffic; AM radio; and the latest TSOP album-length cuts hot off <a href='https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/lou-reed-as-his-music-sounded-to-me\/' class='excerpt-more'>[&#8230;]<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":5,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[342],"tags":[170,68],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20348"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/5"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=20348"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20348\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=20348"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=20348"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.rocktownhall.com\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=20348"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}